Failure to Succeed!

Normally this simple phrase has such negative conotations to it. As in – I have failed to succeed, ie. I was trying to succeed but failed, ie. I was trying to succeed but didn’t so therefore I failed.

Well I have failed to succeed.

I have just recieved a mark for a (relatively important) project that was, shall we say, very unsatisfactory. To put a long story short, the project that a while ago I was stuck with deciding on an idea… yeah well I took to long and subsequently did not have the work content to pass one particular hurdle of a presentation.

However, and this is where we go back to the ‘Failure to Succeed’ heading, I have (after a good counselling session with Nat) decided to NOT take this the negative way. I haven’t failed to succeed, instead my failure will enable me too succeed! What?! you say – well (and this is where I relay major points from a tipsy conversation) as Natalie kindly pointed out to me, some of the most successful people in life have failed at some point. She also told me that sometimes the better people to hire are those that have suffered failure, as they are the people that have picked themselves up. They are the people who can turn situations around for the better. And quite simply they are the people who have LIFE experience.

This (and the $1 bubbly’s) made me feel a lot better.

Now while the presentation that I failed has not affected me too much (as in I’m still well passing my degree (thank goodness otherwise its $30,000 and something down the drain)) it is still good to hear that this is something that I can learn from. Not only that, but then later when I was talking to Ingo, I realised (with a lot of help from him) that if I come back, try and do even BETTER than I’ve ever done before, well not only will I feel obesely satisfied with myself, but also I’ll be able to *stick it up* at everyone that smugly thought ’she had it coming’. (totally not the point I should have taken from that conversation, but again, the thought made me feel better)

Yes I did have it coming. “Procrastination is Key” is my favourite saying, and a new one picked up this year: “why change a habit of a lifetime?” Well… why? because a mid-project presentation doesn’t usually cater to the “pull-it-out-of-your-…bottom” type of person. No certainly not *damn them!* and as a last minute harry, I have finally been fully and utterly punished for my method of working.

Previously stated: The reason I get distracted easily and can think of a million other things that I could do is not procrastination, it’s a Creativity Block. I am physically and mentally unable to come up with any work, and if I force myself to do it anyway it will never last the cut. hmmm yes well, still think this is true, but am seeing now that I definately need to work on it :s

Anyway, not really concentrating on the writing at hand at the moment, but onwards with my succeeding from failure!!!! Ie. Failure to Succeed!